Friday, June 30, 2006

better together

I feel so empty right now. Is it because I'm no longer staying in hostel? I simply miss the ppl there. Esp Iris, Carlyn n Shyyi. I remember times when i felt so low n so down n dirty, Carlyn n Shyyi will never fail to gimme a great warm hug that brightens up my day although they dunno wat to say or do, but the hugs they give definitely made my day.

Was just sitting in my room, suddenly felt lonely, and started crying. normally times like this, my moo moo, Iris will sit by my bed side and start talking to me. she will give me advices and most of the time it all will work.
sometimes she might not give me the best sollution, but wat matter most, she is right there next to me listening. im so happi that i have met so many ppl tat care for me. at least i know i exist, for real. I dont only owe the 3 of them, that i've mention, but also for other friends who stayed true, and was always there, to stand by me. i cant mention everyones' name here, i might just miss out a whole bunch of them. but u guys shud know who u are. i just wana say thank u very much.
there isn't a word, that could express how i feel, but the feeling of gratefullness in me is so great and strong, that if one day i have to trade my life for any1 of them, i would.


There is no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
And no song that I could sing, but I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving

Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here and where do we go
And how come it's so hard
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing
It's always better when we're together

it's always better when we're together
we'll look at the stars when we're together
it's always better when we're together
it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments just might find a way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings
Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see
That they'll be gone too, too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now

I believe in memories, they look so, so pretty when I sleep
And when I wake up, you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're better together


Life can be deceiving

finally, im home, and have time to blog.
i realli dont know what i have been busy with lately. i stop blogging for quite a while coz d hse in townvilla in cyberia doesnt have an internet connection yet. its kinda frustrating u know.

its been 2 weeks in first semester of beta year. feel so senior when i see the freshies, walking around in campus with their big big ID tag hanging around their neck. by looking at them, it sure bring back some memories, when i was new in MMU. aaah, those were the days in Alpha FCM.

hmmm, let me see, during the first week ntg much happen. it was just all lectures n briefing, no tutorial. we gotto know our lecturers and head dept and they brief us bout our majors.
my head dept for MI was quite a cool man. where as my photography lecturer(Mr Che Mat) seem nice n funny, but i heard frm the senior tat he is just as bad as a monster. during fcm award nite, he even won himself "MOST HARD TO PLEASE LECTURER". what do u think?

keke, that was first week. i was starting to get busy during week two. had assignments, presentation and club meeting. i have another meeting this sunday. gosh, they must be kidding me, on sunday? anyway, im use to this. was like this during my first year here in MMU.

I have alot of things tat i wana achieve this year. Cant share here, but there are certain things that i definitely wana do. I wana lead in a group. i have confident tat i can lead, about leadership skills? i have them alright. i have attended courses and learn n study bout it. but havent really gotten a chance to lead, prob bcoz there will always be someone who wants to lead. and most of the time, they had really let me down.
another thing i wana do is get myself involve in more activity in campus, altho i gotto walk t campus late at night. last semester i was involve with Swim CLub, Creative Multimedia Club, Scuba Diving, Chinese Language Society and lots more. now i wana double up my activity. prob drop a few clubs, and join some new clubs. i just wana get a good testimonial when i graduate and also get lots and lots of experience. i have got only 1 life, and im gonna make full use of it, altho its gonna be a lil trouble for me to juggle my time between my studies and my activities. i will learn. urrrm, lemme rephrase that. i MUST learn.

ok, enuff of studies. my housemates get a long pretty well (fingers crossed). i dont have any prob with them altho some are quite bossy, but that is not a prob, at all. i hope we will be able to live with one another for ther next 3yrs.

Friday, June 16, 2006

non-sense

tsk tsk tsk, what a long week it has been.
was rather tiring and muscle all over my body is aching. need more deep heat. *rub rub neck*

what i did this week? hmmm, lemme see...
i stayed in the townhouse in cyber on sunday. alil scary staying alone, and i have to tell u there are so many mosquitos... they've sucked up all my blood!!! Curse those blood-sucking mosquitos...!! @#%^*

steph came by on monday morning. both, stephh and i explored the whole townvilla area. showed her around cyberjaya, MMU and putrajaya. so glad n proud to say that i didnt get lost.
aaaanyway, the whole purpose of goin back to cyberjaya was gone coz, we were supposed to attend a briefing in university on wed but it seems like the briefing has been canceled.

results were announce on tues evening, and thank God, i pass alpha...so did all my alphie friends. *clap clap* CGPA has improved, but still not satisfied. =(
after results, scha, steph, sieg n i went ikea to get some furniture n deco for our new hse. then we headed to mcD and got ourselves a very big mountain of fries.
later that night, i had visitors. iris n carlyn stayed over. sieg, pitt, hasnul came by to chit chat, then rusdi cam along. stayed up till quite late. almost 5am. then on wed morning couldnt wake up. rory n calvin came...

right now im loosing my mood to blog. my sentence might not make any sense, but heck cares, im gonna still continue blogging. why? COZ I WANT TO!!!

today i went out on a date. was quite fun. watched tokyo drift. had romantic lunch. came home.
had bad bad feeling bout something. cant wait till schools starts. am broke. yay! i shall just die now... bye~

Thursday, June 08, 2006

what i really want...?

now im blogging on my notepad on my pc. shyte!
blogger is down, streamyx is so#@$*-ed up, connection's snailing.

this holiday seem so dead. i couldn't go out n enjoy my hols coz my parents need me at home to run errands and take care of my lil bro. he is such a brat!
i cant complain can't i? grandpa n grandma's ill, grand-aunt had cancer... this is all i can do. stay at home, if this is what they want, i have ntg to complain. pls pray for them...

its raining here right now, for the second time, sigh...such gloomy day.
yesterday i got to know that 2 of my coursemate in MMU are goin to further their studies in Romania n San Francisco. Suddenly, there are so many things that struck my mind.
One by one, going away, quiting MMU to persue what they really want.
For a minute i sat down and started thinking. Is this what i really want??? I dont regret taking this course, i know im on the right track, definitely the right field. its just that i find the university that im studying right now doesnt have the specific course that i want! i dont think in my country they will ever offer this course. i wana go to a school of arts n craft. it's just my interest. i wish i had more money to study.

apart from that, that two friends that i've mention are actuali together, they are a couple . they are gonna be seperated for a few years. a few years, not a few months. like what they said, "what is a few years compared to a lifetime". that line really made a very big impact on me. its true infact, its so damn true.

if there is an oppurtunity for me to study in canada, i will go. and if one day jason wants to go sumwhere realli far to study visual effects, i would let him go. will just stay here n wait for his return.

there is so many things i want in life, that i know i can never get them all.im gonna work off my ass, and fulfil ass as much goals as i can, ontop of that, give my children the best and finest things in life.

Earth Angel

Earth Angel, Earth Angel
Will you be mine
My darling dear
Love you all the time
I'm just a fool
A fool in love with you

Earth Angel, Earth Angel
The one I adore
Love you forever and ever more
I'm just a fool
A fool in love with you

I fell for you
And I knew
The vision of your lov-loveliness
I hoped and I prayed that someday
I'll be the vision of your hap-happiness

Oh,Oh,
Earth Angel, Earth Angel
Please be mine
My darling dear
Love you all the time
I'm just a fool
A fool in love with you

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

He is my daddy

He...
❤Break promises
❤Lies to me
❤Simple and plain
❤Doesn't have time for me
❤Hurts me
❤The one and only person that ever slapped me
❤Keep things from me
❤Always talks bout money


but...
❤He is creative
❤Protects me
❤Unselfish
❤Inspires me
❤Loves me
❤Someone i look up to
❤My daddy


and....
I ❤ him

Sunday, June 04, 2006

No Bravery

I was browsing thru the net and guess what i've found?

A very moving anti-war presentation set to the music of James Blunt. Warning some of the images in this 4 min movie are distressing and show the reality of war. If you are not used to seeing such Images or you are sensitive to Images of what war is really like then I would advice you NOT to watch this clip.

Click the link below to watch the flash.

http://www.informationclearinghouse.info/article11799.htm

*computer whiz wuz here*

deep slumber

i suspect that there is sleeping gas in my room.
dunno whr, i cant seem to find the source of it. i have been searching high n low for it. still fail to find. maybe its not the sleeping gas, maybe its just me...

i've been sleeping for 10 hours ytdy, and i couldn't wake up till my bf woke me up. feel so drowsy and sleepy. right now while blogging, i really really feel like sleeping.

whats wrong with me?

hmmm, no complains la, coz when my new semester starts, i can only afford to sleep 3 hours daily.
ok ok, i shall not waste so much time blogging. i wana go to dreamland now.nitey nite nite!!!


...zzz...

Saturday, June 03, 2006

steph is making me fat!

whoa, this two days has been very very fattening for me.
stef stayed over at my place for 2 days. we went shopping in sg wang on friday n we ended up makaning the whole day, right up till midnight.

i havent been eating breakfast ever since form 5. i'm already so used to it n now it has became a habit. on friday, stef and i went sg wang and the first thing she crave for was the noodle from the hong kong noodle house. then she wanted dessert. wanted some jelly and banana chocolate cake. in the end we did not get any coz i was holding her back. a bit mean la, but we have to save money to buy stuff for our new house.

then, we went to tesco in kajang to get toiletries, mirror, mirror n etc...
we saw many many things that we wanted, but we only bought the neccesitties. the receite came up to only rm 109... its quite affordable. we got alot, i mean ALOT of things.

well, later at night, while playing cards, suddenly stef wanted to eat chicken wing. i thought, oh well, i could go down n have a drink while she makan her chicken wing... in the end, we all end up eating chicken wings, "wanton mee" and "choo cheong fun" at the hawker stall.

i normally wont eat so much, coz firstly my stomach will get upset and secondly i have to watch my weight. i dunno why steph wont get fat altho she keeps on stuffing herself with food...while i, on the other hand get put on weight really fast. well, altho i put on weight realli fast, i loose weight very fast too. but, but, i would wana watch my weight, dowana go on an extreme diet.

argh...can't imagine life in cyber next sem. stef is gonna stuff me with lotsa food, later i will b a walking stuffed turkey, very good for christmas dinner. =)
hmmm, gotto start going to the clubhouse and start swimming, must practice too, wana join the university swim team next sem!!!

Friday, June 02, 2006

dowana be apart from u

he is definitely jason aw eng kuon when behind his glasses

*yawn*

2 weeks pass just like that. hardly did anything progressive during this 2 weeks.
there are certain goals that i wana reach during this holidays, but on second thought, i dun think so i have the time. im fully occupied this whole week and next week too.
i will be doin some shopping for my new house in townvilla,cyberia, so called mine la... then i have to go singapore for 4-5 days. must visit my grandma over there. i promised her since second sem. it seems like i dont have the time to go, so now i have to make it up to her. a promise is a promise, rite?

today baby came by, n guess what? he bought me an electrical cordless jug for my new house!!! hmm, feel so odd. its like my hubby bought our hse some electrical appliances. hehe...

its kinda scary, when the thought of not seeing ur loved one for a week or two. i got a feeling that i wont be seeing jason for the next week. i grew to become so dependent on him! sigh...
im so use to seeing him everyday in campus, and every alternate days during the holidays...i dunno whether i can tahan by not seeing him for a week.
my mind is drifting further n further away into the future. what if we have to be apart from one another? i am willing to go where ever he will go. well, i rather not think bout it rite now. the thought of it really freaks me out.

hmmm, maybe u think that i'm too naive and its too early to make any decision rite now but i have to say that i already know what i want. i can decide for myself, i dont need anyone to tell me what to do. i'm old enuff.

whats happening to me? i realize im not only in love with him but im crazy in love with him.
i still get butterflies in my tummy when he calls, my heart will skip a beat when he hold my hands, blood rushing to my head when he ask me out on a date, and i get very very nervous when i dial his number. it makes me feel like im in highschool again, talking to my crush, except that, HE IS MY BOYFRIEND.

baby jas0n, if ur reading this, i just wana thank u for everything, from de-boning the chicken for me to providing me warm warm hugs when i need them. *huggies*

Thursday, June 01, 2006

KiSs gOoDbYe by LeE HoM

hope u guys enjoy this clip. he makes my heart melt when ever he plays the piano!