DEEP, DARK SECRET

i'm crying as im typing this...

today is the worst day of my life, well other than the day i found out bout the secret. i considered today a bad day is because my dad finally decided to tell me about the past (which i alredy did found out 7 years ago).
daddy still thinks that i dont know anything about it...well he is wrong...when i was young i been through many things that u havent been through...i've seen many things that a child shouldnt see and i have experience more than anyone ever did.

although i found out bout this dark secret 7 yrs ago but i'm not really sure and didnt know the whole story, till today...
there is this caucasian australian man whom i really like to thank..partly is whom i think had destroy and totally messed up my life. i really had to thank him for making me such a strong girl and made me survive my past till today.

he or shall i use "IT" had ruin my childhood and has taken everything away from me... he had made me cry to bed every night and still making me believing that it was just an accident. i cried so much till i had no more tears to shed. im feeling so miserable and i feel so small because i couldn't seek for revenge and couldn't stand up for myself. why must the bad guy always get away for what they have done wrong.

i believe in this world there is a little bit of fairness left. i know he will be getting his punishment one day.
i promised to myself that when i found out where IT is living (his add), i will pay him a visit and look him in the eye and let him know that i'm still alive...he cannot bring me down so easily and i will not die for this fucking bastard...
i will also look at his family and will of course let them know what he has done and how he had taken my life away...
no matter what he do or what he sacrifice (including his life), i will never forgive him.

i couldn't accept this at first but i know i have to stay strong..and i must live on so that i will go to his house and give him a surprise visit... i bet when he look at me he will surely regconixed this familiar face i have... he will definitely know who i am...