purple headed freak

he invited me over for dinner.
i agreed in less then a split second. making it sound like im so cool.
as if i was totally ok.

deep, deep down, im nervous.
wonder what to talk about.
im worried.... i cant even hold my fork and spoon properly.
im scared.... that i might say things that will make me look stoopid.

i got butterflies in my tummy. my head is spinning.
got no clue what to wear or how to impress.

its a big thing for me as i really love him. hopefully i wont screw up. and i really wish they will accept me.

i suddenly forgot who i really am

lost.