purple headed freak

he invited me over for dinner.
i agreed in less then a split second. making it sound like im so cool.
as if i was totally ok.

deep, deep down, im nervous.
wonder what to talk about.
im worried.... i cant even hold my fork and spoon properly.
im scared.... that i might say things that will make me look stoopid.

i got butterflies in my tummy. my head is spinning.
got no clue what to wear or how to impress.

its a big thing for me as i really love him. hopefully i wont screw up. and i really wish they will accept me.

i suddenly forgot who i really am

lost.

Di Pintu Syurga

Sekukuh mana ikrar kasih kita
Setebal mana masih ada sempadannya
Akan tiba nanti... harus ditempuhi
Ada daya kita melawan masa
Takdirnya... takdirnya dunia hanya sementara
Walau begitu cinta suci untuk selamanya
Ini realiti... hilang tak terganti
Namun ku tahu aku akhirnya kembali bersatu

Andai daku pergi sebelummu
Kenangkanlah ku selalu didalam doamu
Kaulah cinta pertama dan terakhir untukku
Ku berjanji kan menantimu
Setia menunggu di pintu syurga

Di sana... di sana menati gemilang cinta
Jadi lenyapkanlah titisan airmata
Tabahkanlah hati... mengharungi hari
Abadikanlah saat indah... kita kan tetap bersama

will be waiting

sacrifices

im back!

fuh, what a long journey it has been.
right now i'm kinda missing my grandma, although when i was with her she restrict me to do almost anything. i was really living like a princess over there. she wont even let me bring my cup to the sink in the kitchen. gosh...

i miss her story telling time before bed. i miss all the funny stories she shared with me bout my mom. actually i realized this is no ordinary trip to singapore, she wants to keep me "updated". thats what.

oh well, i finally get to spent time with her and she is happy now.

yesterday was my baby's birthday and also our 9th month anni. i think i have dissapointed him coz i did not celebrate with him. but i sure made it up to him today. miss him like crazy.

you know, i had the weirdest dream ever. i dreamt of many friends, whether new found friends or really old time buddy. really really missed them.
i planned to call up a small gathering this wednesday for my buddies. i hope they can all make it. i've talk to wendy and she said she'll be there, but i'm not sure bout the rest. im afraid that ling and mm has classes and vimal has exams. steph should be ok, i hope!

i realized that my mom is taking up photography and my god mother is staying up late to watch soccer and golf on espn. they learn these stuff that they are not exposed to, patiently so that they will have more in comment and more to talk to in a conversation, with their hubby. - respect -

...and i'm playing dotA @_@

i'm the living dead

hola~

im in singapore rite now. reach here yesterday around 5 pm.

the weather here is so hazey and me no like the food here. eat till nose bleed(due to haze la, not the food). luckily i brought along my nose spray.

was here to actually accompany my grandma. she is not feeling very well, but as soon as we reached here she insist that we'd go shopping.
im currently staying in my uncle's house in bishan street. quite convinient. got shops, market and pubic public transport too.

today i went to chinatown. no biggie...cant buy clothes o accessories. kl got more baju. and i still prefer nick nacks frm kl.

the whole day only spent only $39 on junx. oh oh.....but i got a very good deal for the bag that i bought for my grandma in KL. its a dinner bag. very shinny and cute. hopefully she'll like it. cant get things for dad and godFather. not the right place. in chinatown most of the things are for auntie 1, unlike chinatown in KL, happening place. good for children from 8 to old ladies at the age of 80. syiok. no place is better than home.

i got homesick when i reach here. im so useless. hmmm, but its ok...i got mochachino here to teman me. aiya....when i go back home to malaysia, i must give a tribute to mochachino and his family. he's been there for me alot. i sure miss my family... sobs.

thats my first day in singapore. ntg much. will blog again tmr. muaxx!

-the reflection of Judy, mC-

MYTHS

there is something that i wana share here on my blog.

you know, there is a myth (the Chinese) saying that when u fall asleep, ur soul will come out from ur body and wonder around. i dont know to what extend this is true but i'm beginning to believe it.

i just woke up from a very horrible nightmare. and so i called the person that i dreamt about, he too had a nightmare about me. this is not happening for the first time. its realli freaky.

there are also myths like when a person is sleeping no one should paint the face of the person who is asleep, if not when the soul comes back to the body it does not recognize its "owner". and therefore, the soul cannot go back into the body which will make the person sleeping harder to wake up or not wake up!!! <>

the other one is, not to take picture of the person who is sleeping. why u asked? because the soul of the person might get capture into the camera if there is flash or it might be scared away.

i really dont know how far this myths are true, but i certainly believe that when we sleep our soul will meet the person that we dream of. sometimes the person that u dream of might not be dreaming, but there is also a possibility that the person woke up forgetting what he/she had just dreamt of. it happens.

a day in the park

today, *ahemm* i mean yesterday, i went to klcc park to reshoot my photography assignment. i have to say it was tough finding the right spot to get the right picture. was not easy at all. no no.

*shakes head*
actually i havent enjoy myself outdoors like how i did today for a very long time. i was a kid again today. it all started with this morning. dad sent jason dear and i to klcc and he gave us some tips on photography. then my dad headed to register his new photography company (congrats dad!).

then jason and i was like wondering around the park, looking for nice nice spot. and i realize w\one thing, klcc park/playground is so BIG! if only i was a kid, then i can play all the swings and slides.
i did anyway. i ask jason to post post nicely he make monkey faces and all. tsk tsk tsk.

after shooting, we were so tired and thirsty. so we head to klcc and makan pizza. the pizza was extraordinaryly good! service was good too! *two thumbs up*
we also did crossword puzzle in pizza hut. we were enjoying ourselves and laugh so loud till we forgot that we are in a public place. but, who cares? anyway we continue laughing and giggling till we didnt realize that everyone at the restaurant had left. we did so many things. gosh i just cant put all the memories i had into words.

i feel like today i have achive many things. partly i get to release the child in me (jason was like a big baby too), got to finish up my assignment, make some cash and study.

baby, if ur reading this, thanx for pushing me to study and helping me with my assignment. u gave me a lot of support and inspiration, u taught me how to have fun too. ur really a cool boyfriend that i could ever asked for. thanx hunny.

h.u.r.t.f.u.l.w.o.r.d.s.

why did u hang up on me over and over again? why do u have to hurt me over and over again? why do u have to leave me here alone? why must i be the one to ask u back. why are you treaating me like this? im breaking down. i have my own limits. i am hurt. should i leave all this behind? or should i just give it another try?