ATTENTION!!! IMPORTANT MSG FROM MC...

i just at 2 bananas....kekeke...yummy...jealous leh?! haha!

after 6 months... STEPH!!!

finally after 6months...i finally met up with stef... its been half a year since we had spent time together...i really miss u la steph...

anyway we spent so much time together, talking n chatting...kakaka...like wat girls are good at...well, we did lotsa catching up...we update each other and stuff like that...she has change a lil...she cut her hair and highlighted it red...she thinks she looks "lala" but i think she looks great! hehe...

well, she went home this morning at 8am (so earli la!) and in 2 weeks time she will be going back to malacca and i will have to go back to my campus and start 2nd sem..

i don't know when we will meet again but i hope to see u soon steph...

1st trimester's Results...oh my gawd!

I got my results today...i was so scared...u got no idea how much stumbling and shacking i went through...i felt like a vibrator..hahahahaha...coz im nervouse wat!

anyway still did check my results online and i PASS ALL my subjects... i actually did quite well but not too good... at least my CGPA points are above 3!!! okok...gotto call daddy and let him know...

yippie...

rainbow in my room

on that sunny afternoon, as i was lying down on my bed i thought of the past and started crying... then it began to rain, i guess the clouds were crying with me... i was so pathethic but i couldnt stop...i just don't kow why...losing some1 u love is very painful, i guess i still havent overcome the lost of my mummy after all these years...

my eyes were filled with tears till i look up to the ceiling of my room...i saw rainbow in my room...seriously, i dunno how it reflected till it was in my room but i swear i saw it..i called aunt elaine to my room and she saw the rainbow to...immediately i stopped crying and suddenly i felt like im lifted up... i sat there alone, enjoyed the moment...

the pretty rainbow really cheered me up when i was sad... i hope i will be able to see another rainbow in my room!

I RAPED A NAKED OLD LADY....Cool!

lets play everyone... this is so fun!


Body: TAKE THE FIRST LETTER OF YOUR
FIRST NAME...

A=I'D LOVE TO LICK
B=I ATE
C=I DUMPED MY BOYFRIEND FOR
D=I HAD A ONE NIGHT STAND WITH
E=I MILKED
F=I SAT ON
G=I SAW
H=I'M IN LOVE WITH
I=IN MY ROOM I FOUND
J=I PUSHED
K=I GOT IN A FIGHT WITH
L=I MURDERED
M=I RAPED
N=I DEEP-FRIED
O=IN MY FREEZER, I FOUND
P=I MOLESTED
Q=I TALKED ON THE PHONE TO
R=I CHEATED ON MY LOVER WITH
S=I'M MOVING IN WITH
T=I JUST KILLED
U=I KICKED AND KILLED
V=I SKINNED ALIVE
W=I GAVE MY NUMBER TO
X=I MARINATED
Y=I BABYSAT
Z=I TRADED MY MOM FOR

NOW TAKE THE THIRD LETTER OF YOUR LAST
NAME...

A=A HIPPOPOTAMUS
B=A CURLY FRY
C=A BLOCK OF CHEESE
D=AN ERASER
E=A GAY HOBO
F=YOUR MOM
G=AN EMPTY TACOBELL CUP
H=A GREASY PAPER PLATE
I=A SPORK
J=A MELTED ORANGE CRAYON
K=GEORGE WASHINGTON
L=A PEICE OF CHEWED GUM
M=A SEA URCHIN
N=A PAIR OF GRANNY PANTIES
O=ORANGE JUICE
P=YOUR BRA
Q=A BIRD
R=A STOP SIGN
S=A DUSTPAN
T=A RANDOM GUY
U=A RANDOM GIRL
V=A YELLOW PAPERCLIP
W=A PAIR OF SNEAKERS
X=A TURKEY
Y=A NAKED OLD LADY
Z=A JELLYBEAN

DEEP, DARK SECRET

i'm crying as im typing this...

today is the worst day of my life, well other than the day i found out bout the secret. i considered today a bad day is because my dad finally decided to tell me about the past (which i alredy did found out 7 years ago).
daddy still thinks that i dont know anything about it...well he is wrong...when i was young i been through many things that u havent been through...i've seen many things that a child shouldnt see and i have experience more than anyone ever did.

although i found out bout this dark secret 7 yrs ago but i'm not really sure and didnt know the whole story, till today...
there is this caucasian australian man whom i really like to thank..partly is whom i think had destroy and totally messed up my life. i really had to thank him for making me such a strong girl and made me survive my past till today.

he or shall i use "IT" had ruin my childhood and has taken everything away from me... he had made me cry to bed every night and still making me believing that it was just an accident. i cried so much till i had no more tears to shed. im feeling so miserable and i feel so small because i couldn't seek for revenge and couldn't stand up for myself. why must the bad guy always get away for what they have done wrong.

i believe in this world there is a little bit of fairness left. i know he will be getting his punishment one day.
i promised to myself that when i found out where IT is living (his add), i will pay him a visit and look him in the eye and let him know that i'm still alive...he cannot bring me down so easily and i will not die for this fucking bastard...
i will also look at his family and will of course let them know what he has done and how he had taken my life away...
no matter what he do or what he sacrifice (including his life), i will never forgive him.

i couldn't accept this at first but i know i have to stay strong..and i must live on so that i will go to his house and give him a surprise visit... i bet when he look at me he will surely regconixed this familiar face i have... he will definitely know who i am...

It's damn true about me! Damn true i tell u, damn true!

Birth stone
Diamond

You like...
Sincere people, freedom, being busy, laughing at silly jokes and scary movies (sometimes).

You dislike...
Gossip, moody mates, being taken for granted and you absolutely hate lies.

You're best at...
Leading the pack as a leader, pushing yourself to the limit and making difficult decisions

Deep down...
U are just a sensitive softie with a lust for life 'n' love. U dream of having a gang of mates, a happy home environment 'n' wild holiday adventures.

Your career...
Choose a job in publishing, entertaining or climb to the top as a company boss - anything where you're in charge of exciting and interesting projects.

Fashion
Tight-fitting clothes in bright colours (red especially) look great on you - as do sporty-looking clothes or anything fashionably stripey. Fluffy, girlie clobber isn't your style at all.

As a mate...
A friendly and focused type, u want everyone to be happy. U can't stand dishonesty or people who talk behind ur back and won't be shy to mouth off at 'em if they do.

As a girlfriend...
U take the lead in a relationship, teasing ur boy wiv passionate kisses 'n' behind-the-scenes butt squeezes. If he's worth his salt 'n' wants to keep u, he'll return the favour with hot dates and plenty of pressies.

Best Friends!

today i had a gathering in kajang at rocteam with all my best buddies...i brought along syafiq so my friends could meet him. they seem to like him and im very happi.
i'm reall glad to have such a crazy bunch of best friend. wendy still look as pretty as she used to, peiling still is as lame as she was before, michele still talks alot and still as clumsy...haha, vimal is still as handsome, pavi is still so skinny, faiz is still so cute, ruban still look so smart but naresh had realli changed, for good. he is no more the small boy we used to know...he has grown up and mature so much plus he look much more handsomer now! keke...handsome boy! it is sad that tina and stephie couldn't make it at the very last minute. it's ok, i'll be looking forward for the next gathering.

i used to think that we will never be the same like we use to in high skool, but i guess i was wrong...hey buddies, i hope the bond of our friendship will grow stronger each day and our friendship will last for eternity! i hope u guys will see this post and know how much u guys meant to me!

phew! finally~

today i have finally finished my last paper. it kinda suxx(comp graphics, what du u expect?) well, cut it out...im done with it...

anyway im realli happi as my holiday have just started...i have a whole long list of things to do during this one month break. i kinda miss campus rite now, i miss my frens there, miss the yummy sometimes sucky food...i miss my hot and humid room and my siow siow roomates..i also misses scha who is my closest gurlfriend in MMu...haih...and not to forget, the "leng chais" and the "leng luis" of MMU...haha...can't miss out my funny neighbour and her pet lion(jaz),crazy cow(iris), dj jason, shiew woei, bing bing and yun yi...oh my gosh, there's so many more that i will miss. i just miss campus so much.

well look on the bright side... i get to rest for a month!!!! A month, baby!
i have plan to learn how to use adobe photoshop as i will be needing the skill for the 2nd semester. so i must push myself to learn how to use the software and secondly, tomorrow im gonna go to town to get myself a mesonite board and a charcoal...wana draw at home! keke!

okok...i wana go chat wif my friends rite now and that's all, that's all for my first trisemester...

Insomnia

i think i have insomnia...
last night, i slept at 2am then i woke up at 2.30am...its been like this for almost a week...i begin to suspect myself whether i have imsomnia...

when i woke up i call my cayang, after talking for about 10 mins then i hung up,coz he sound very sleepy. i was rolling on my bed...so bored then suddenly i thought of scha, so i gave her a msg. to my surprise...she is still alive, i mean awake, haih...i thought i was the only soul up at that time(it was 4.45am).

gtg search for symptoms of insomnia..

Did you know ???

Did you know that when you envy someone, it's because you really like that person?

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart,are real weak and most succeptible?

Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need some one to protect them?

Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:

"I love you", "Sorry" and "help me".

The people who say these are actually in need of them or really feel them, and are the ones you really need to treasure, because they have said them.

Did you know that people who occupy themselves by keeping
others company or helping others are the ones that actually need your company and help?

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?

Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?

Did you know that those who need more of you are those that don't mention it to you?

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face?But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?

Did you know that what is most difficult for you to say or do is much more valuable than anything that is valuable that you can buy with money?

Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?

Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.

But don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for
yourself , if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned, and you know that you can help, you'll see; that it will be returned in two-fold.

he listens....

i don't know how i got into an arguement with syafiq that day. i feel so guilty.
when we talk about it and when we patch things up later that day, it makes me feel even more guilty.

i realise that he listens to me...yup, every little thing i said. sometimes i even forgotten what i've said but he keeps it in his heart and tries to fulfil it.

for example, when my heels broke, i told him that the shoes means alot to me and i couldnt find a replacement coz it is last season, but he somehow manages to find me 1, it's just that the size wont fit (i don't blame him, i have big feet).

when i told him i wish to own a big comfy bean bag ( i was just saying it, not important actually), he went searching hi and low for a bean bag and finally he got me a very big beany bag from British India and the best part is, it is in green, my favourite.

he knows what i like and what i don't like(in very specific way). he knows how i like my food to be served, how picky i am towards food, etc. and most importantly, he knows from the top till the bottom, from the inside out of me.

why am i so blind and why am i so stupid...i always doubted him. i feel so useless and like i said for so many berzillion times, he is too perfect for me.
sometimes i thought to myself that i dont deserve a guy like him.

i am truely glad that he listens all this while and i have to admit that im falling deeper and deeper for him each day.